Saturday, September 29, 2007, 5:23 PM
I must be the only one going out 2 days before Finals. Haha. Whatever la. I don't give a fuck now. I know I'm gonna screw up anyway. lol.
Topshop fashion show at Pavillion.
Most shops are open there. The mall is pretty crowded. There's like Forever 21 (not open yet), Esprit, Zara, MNG, AlX, Roxy, Paul Frank, DKNY, 6 floor high Parkson, Tangs and so much more. It's like a more expensive One Utama. Haha.
Anyway, I don't feel well today. Having quite a bad headache. While walking outside Pavilion, I felt like I was going to pass out. The heat made me feel worse =S Went to Starbucks for a quick drink to relief my headache. Most unfortunately, it did not work. I still feel like crap now, how am I gonna study whey! And finals is in like 2 fucking days, DAMN IT! I haven't even done much!
*don't mind the swearing, it's to relief stress.
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Thursday, September 27, 2007, 9:48 PM
Interesting Conversation with Chung Yi, Katt, Rina and Wai Keat.
CY says: (10:01:48 PM)
STARTING PRICE = RM 150
katherineeeee. says: (10:02:15 PM)
chung wanna sell u and rina to wai keat
CY says: (10:02:20 PM)
SHHHHHHHHH
katherineeeee. says: (10:02:23 PM)
since rina don't want, chung want to sell u :)
marcia says: (10:02:27 PM)
bapa ayam
katherineeeee. says: (10:02:28 PM)
he claims u are his anak
How Wai Keat says: (10:02:28 PM)
hahah
katherineeeee. says: (10:02:34 PM)
which means u are FOR SALE
marcia says: (10:02:37 PM)
i'm not qualified
How Wai Keat says: (10:02:37 PM)
chung yi kena diu ady lo
CY says: (10:02:40 PM)
ei anak mesti denger cakap bapa lahhhh
-rina- says: (10:02:41 PM)
RM 150 only
marcia says: (10:02:43 PM)
bastard..
*bastard Chung Yi sold me and Rina to Wai Keat. Rina, RM100. I'm RM150. He claims we're his anak =.=
*yes, he'll most probably join Cempaka next year. Looks like the school (form 5) is going to be chaotic. Haha. He seriously has the bucks! And he'll continue to kao all the girls till none is left (what nonsense), his daily activity =.=
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Wednesday, September 26, 2007, 5:06 PM
I woke up 10 minute ago, reading Rina's sms about the cast party! Haha. Trust me, I immediately got up from my bed. lol.
It has been quite some time since the end of the production. About 2 months? Hey.. that's quite long. I thought it would have been this month, while we still had that whole Witches Of Oz mood. Whatever it is, I should think that'll be something to look forward to.
I miss that kid, Ian (NOT the BIG one, k?), he's so cute and NAUGHTY, miss him jumping around. lol. I hope he still remembers me after so long =S Shannon, Lin, the other stage crew members like Bernard, Alex, Shu Sim, Jun Hao and all. I miss all of you, didn't see some of you since ages =)
Well, it's on October 9th, Tuesday, at 7 pm. Ahhhhh, have to go through that 7 days of torture. Finals >.< style="color: rgb(204, 102, 204);">
p.s. I think I should take Alex advice about Sejarah. Haha. Less stress that way =)
Sunday, September 23, 2007, 11:17 AM
This sucks whey! I'm trying so hard to study, but I can't. My biggest problem is SEJARAH! WTF. All these are like.... grr.....nonsense! =.= Why do I need to learn it?
Fei Lun Hai is coming for concert tmrw. And I'm missing it. WTF. I found out too late. I wanted to go. But, Finals are coming.. DAMN IT!!!!! Unlike some people who get to go and watch from the front row... hahaha....I'm jealous whey.... Nvm, at least I saw Wu Zun like RIGHT infront of me before. Even if it was like 20 seconds, but whatever la, not everyone gets to. Haha.
I CAN'T WAIT TILL FINALS ARE OVER!!!
SHER MEIN IS COMING BACK! YAY. MY 'CINA' FRIEND IS BACK! MY 'JAY CHOU' FRIEND IS BACK!
sherr =) says: (11:27:46 AM)
and i havnt evn finish ONE pen yet
sherr =) says: (11:27:48 AM)
nce i came here
sherr =) says: (11:27:53 AM)
since*
marcia says: (11:27:56 AM)
what?
marcia says: (11:28:00 AM)
no work?
sherr =) says: (11:28:04 AM)
u knw those pilot ones
sherr =) says: (11:28:09 AM)
VERY little.
*life at Aussie...
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Friday, September 21, 2007, 10:58 PM
It's kindda end of the day. Haha. Anyway, it doesn't really matter right?
HAPPY SWEET 16, SEAN! I hope you enjoyed it.
Exams coming! Faster than I expected. ****!!!! Haha.
Sejarah- I'll be happy if I even pass. 99% fail. Looks like one of her top students gone down the drain.
Bio- HAHAHAHAHA. gone case whey!
Chem- Hmm..... I don't know.... Show me how to remember Salts... haha..
Physics- Confirm gone case! lol.
By the way, I need a alarm clock. Any volunteers? HAHA. Wake me up for exams, 7 days. I found one. I need another backup. Just in case =)
Thursday, September 20, 2007, 11:39 PM
I haven't been studying. I fucking hate myself for that. I'm distracted again. Reason: I don't know. Bernard said I should seriously see a psychiatrist. I need one. Haha. Too bad I only trust myself, only I can solve my own problems.
Secret! 'Lu Xiao Yu' is so touching. I love that song =) It's just piano by the way.
I'm sleepy and tired. Wait, I need to stay up to wish Sean! Haha.
我们勾勾手
This is 'Wo Men Gou Gou Shou'! I like this also. Sounds emo..
Tuesday, September 18, 2007, 11:18 PM
H:不看不想不要有借口 爱了就要勇敢去享受
O:烦恼自找会想破了头 时间不会因此而听走
H:因为想你每天睡过头
O:默默爱着其实象小偷
H;请你答应当我的天后
O:你要想歌迷为我守候
H:爱太思前想后就不够火候 要回头请愿中你的魔咒
O:你和我其实乘坐同一舟 萍水相逢哪足够
H:只要这个时候借我你的手 因为有你我才敢出走
O:爱要勇敢才不会吃尽枯头 爱上了我们就要勾勾手
(合)从此勾勾手 OOH... 不管多永久....勾勾手
O:因为相信才会有守候
H:多坚强外表也会温柔
O:你要伪装到什么时候
H:我只想要带你上星空
Hmm, I actually like this song. For some reason. Normally, I'm not that into local singers. lol. I think this is by Henley and Orange, the Jue Dui Superstar people. But this one sounds emo =) Suits me. Haha. I still can't download it. Damn it. If anyone of you have it, give it to me, pls...
11.30pm, and I'm still online. lol. I can't sleep =( as usual. I'm feeling so distracted these days. I don't know why. I feel that something is missing, but can't seem to tell. Anyway, I actually wasted my whole day doing nothing. Double sejarah in the morning tmrw! What a good way to start the morning.. sleeping in class..
Congrats for your position at YJC, Rachel! I'm really happy for you! Enjoy your trip at London! See you soon..
O:烦恼自找会想破了头 时间不会因此而听走
H:因为想你每天睡过头
O:默默爱着其实象小偷
H;请你答应当我的天后
O:你要想歌迷为我守候
H:爱太思前想后就不够火候 要回头请愿中你的魔咒
O:你和我其实乘坐同一舟 萍水相逢哪足够
H:只要这个时候借我你的手 因为有你我才敢出走
O:爱要勇敢才不会吃尽枯头 爱上了我们就要勾勾手
(合)从此勾勾手 OOH... 不管多永久....勾勾手
O:因为相信才会有守候
H:多坚强外表也会温柔
O:你要伪装到什么时候
H:我只想要带你上星空
Hmm, I actually like this song. For some reason. Normally, I'm not that into local singers. lol. I think this is by Henley and Orange, the Jue Dui Superstar people. But this one sounds emo =) Suits me. Haha. I still can't download it. Damn it. If anyone of you have it, give it to me, pls...
11.30pm, and I'm still online. lol. I can't sleep =( as usual. I'm feeling so distracted these days. I don't know why. I feel that something is missing, but can't seem to tell. Anyway, I actually wasted my whole day doing nothing. Double sejarah in the morning tmrw! What a good way to start the morning.. sleeping in class..
Congrats for your position at YJC, Rachel! I'm really happy for you! Enjoy your trip at London! See you soon..
Monday, September 17, 2007, 5:10 PM
Symptoms of depression
Stress can lead to you feeling down and miserable. What is different about a depressive illness is that these feelings last for weeks or months, rather than days. In addition to feeling low most or all of the time, many other symptoms can occur in depressive illness.
* losing interest in normal activities, hobbies and everyday life.
Not yet, I still enjoy partying. haha.
* feeling tired all of the time and having no energy.
I think so, especially at school.
* difficulty sleeping or waking early in the morning (though some feel that they can't get out of bed and 'face the world').
The earliest I go to bed for school is at 12am, yes, I have insomnia.
* having a poor appetite, no interest in food and losing weight (though some people overeat and put on weight - 'comfort eating').
Rubbish, I still eat.
* finding it difficult to concentrate and think straight.
YES! I can't concentrate on the books.
* feeling restless, tense and anxious.
only restless.
* easily annoyed.
yes.
* losing self-confidence.
I guess so.
* avoiding other people.
Not yet.
* finding it harder than usual to make decisions.
Sometimes.
* feeling useless and inadequate - 'a waste of space'.
As if, that's nonsense.
* feeling guilty about who you are and what you have done.
No, I didn't do anything wrong.
* feeling hopeless - that nothing will make things better.
Yes, no one can help me except for myself.
* thinking about suicide - this is very common.
No! I'm not that stupid.
Hmm... I think I am seriously facing slight depression.
Why?
FINALS and HOMEWORK!
It isn't easy to maintain being one of the top.
I can't afford to lose out, cause I'm kia su.
Maybe I expect too much from myself, but that's who I am.
I really can't stand not to know how to do something, cause I always knew.
Some people might think it's dumb to stress out over exams.
Screw you, that's cause you don't know how important it is.
College is based on SPM, it opens doors to our future career.
It determines who are we going to be in the future, I don't want to work as a salesgirl, waitress or cashier. (Even that, they want reasonably good grades from SPM)
Anyway, enough about that.
I believe I can get over it.
I hope so.
Hey!
I've got to get myself back on my feet!
Time to kick ass!!!
Sunday, September 16, 2007, 6:27 PM
I hate this. Seriously. Why does it seem like nothing can be done in TIME?
Never had I felt so pressured in my lifetime.
Homework, endless. Studying, impossible to finish.
And hey! There's much more in life than just this.
We have other equally important things to do.
But I can't even do that little bit. WHAT THE FUCK!
Sometimes, I just feel like giving up.
It's really hard, you know?
It really gets to me sometimes, and I'll get all frustrated.
I need an escape from all of this, a getaway.
I don't want to end up suffering from depression.
Can't take this hectic lifestyle!
But what can I do?
Anyway, went to Shangri- La again yesterday. How boring.. I was too bored so I decided to walk around the hotel.
by the fountain.
at the stairs.
what a whole bunch of nonsense. we were too bored!
the bar.
irrelevant photo. I was about to sleep.
I realised it's really fun being 16. I hope we never grow up. We can only be wild now. 21 year olds' can be... lol. Maybe they were saving their energy for clubbing later on =)
Saturday, September 15, 2007, 6:12 PM
I love this song =) I WILL REMEMBER YOU (RYAN CABRERA). And 'On The Way Down' by him too. I like quite a few of his songs. Really should listen to it. lol. I'm back to liking these kind of songs! I prefer these more than most Chinese songs. That's why I only listen to Jay Chou (no offense).
I just relised how beautiful Venice was. I really can't wait to go there. 'CITY OF WATER'. I wanted to go there ever since I was a kid. Such a breath-taking view. I always wondered how it was like there.
The beauty of Venice =)
Sunset. I'm sure it'll be nicer there. I always loved the sunset =)
Friday, September 14, 2007, 11:55 PM
Pressure and Stress.
How to release it?
Partying =)
Yes, both came at the right time.
One week once.
Will be enjoying the live band performing,
Sit by the bar and watch people dancing.
Haha.
Can't wait.
I'm sick of the books.
Hmm.. Nothing seems promising.
Something you didn't expect could happen,
Something you expected, maybe didn't happen.
Who knows right?
Even if you were so sure of something at that one moment,
Things change..
Sometimes, with no reason.
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Thursday, September 13, 2007, 11:14 PM
4 HOURS 25 MINUTES of Chemistry today! Haha. That is crazy, k? 11.20am to 2pm (including lunch) and continue from 2pm to 2.45pm and continue after school (3.30pm to 4.30pm). I hope that's going to be the first and last. Torture. That's the right word for it =)
Hmm.. Came home at 5pm. Started doing work till 7pm. Not like I did much. lol. Surprisingly I fell asleep on the couch and woke up at 7.30pm. Got back to my working place, and I fell asleep on the table until dinner. Hey! I drank coffee before that, and I could still sleep. Caffeine not working on me anymore! What nonsense!?! I need it to keep me alive until Finals.
Almost 11.30pm, and I'm still not done with my other work. Chem test. I bet he'll give it tmrw. Good luck to me =)
Party on Saturday and Sunday! I hope I don't have to go for Sunday's one. Next week again! My mum is going to kill me soon..
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Wednesday, September 12, 2007, 11:45 PM
Hmm.. What happened today?
1) I nearly fell asleep in class today. Haha. As always.
2) Chung Yi and Chun Foong are seriously sick (lunch time). Hey, we were eating, k?
3) Sejarah forum was.....
4) Water polo team won! congrats Erwan!
5) Tuition teacher didn't turn up, as usual.
6) I've finally got back on my feet. I'm fine now =)
7) I have Chem during lunch, 5th period and after school tmrw. Great!
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Tuesday, September 11, 2007, 5:22 PM
I feel disturbed.
Why?
Cause everything is so f*cked up these days.
Nothing seems to feel right.
Many things are on my mind.
Maybe I'm just thinking too much?
I feel frustrated.
Why?
Cause I can't comprehend Physics and I'll never catch up for my f*cking sejarah.
Finals are coming, 19 more days.
Don't expect anything great from me anymore.
I'm destroyed.
I hate this feeling.
The feeling of not knowing how to do something.
I don't like being lost.
I want to always be the conscious one.
I can't concentrate.
The thing is, I don't know why.
I can't even stand sitting down for 20 minutes.
I don't get it.
Out of all people, I didn't expect to find comfort from this one person.
Somehow, I feel better after talking to him/her.
Why anyway?
Coffee is keeping me alive now.
I drink it quite often in school these days.
It prevents me from falling asleep.
I hope I don't get addicted although I seriously hate it.
That's about it, for today. I forgotten to mention that I failed Moral, 46%. HAHA. This is really my first time failing in Secondary School. The weird thing is, I don't seem to care. I'm going to hit on the books again (with the help of coffee), I feel like sleeping. Sejarah is a pain!
I sound like someone suffering from depression, but I'm not.
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Monday, September 10, 2007, 4:50 PM
9/9/07 (Sunday)
Bernard and Rina came over for 'group- studying' (I gave up half way, haha). That bitch was 4 hours late. Bernard was dying for food, but the best I could do was instant noodles. HAHA. I can't cook, what you expect? The best part was, I made him sit infront of his bio and sejarah books for 6 hours. Even I can't believed it myself. It's almost impossible. Haha.
Anyway, we went out for dinner around Bandar Baru Ampang at some Italian Restaurant. Rina and Bernard had to stay cause it was raining heavily, it turned out their parents couldn't make it in time to fetch them, haha. Dinner was really funny. 3 of us were smsing Kah Hean with all the nonsense.
ONLINE (after dinner)
Bernard used my msn account. Let's see. We pranked Shang Chuen and Kah Hean. Haha. So funny! Rina and I just couldn't stop laughing looking at all the nonsense. Shang Chuen was shocked. lol. The best was Alex, he figured it out even if Bernard didn't reply him on purpose. Smart boy =)
10/9/07 (Monday)
Slept quite late, about 1am. I forgotten to print my Sejarah folio. Haha. Got a morning call, rather disturbing. I wonder who? lol. School sucked. I wait for the bell to ring after school everyday. What a waste of school fees! I nearly failed my fucking maths paper. 55%. How great? I can't even comprehend physics, some simple things. I'm a gone case! And the test is tmrw, I bet I'm gonna fail it.
Sunday, September 9, 2007, 12:05 AM
Today was interesting. Let's see what happened today.
1) I went to Old Town White Coffee at Jalan Yap Kwan Seng for lunch. 1st time going. Hmm, there was this guy at the counter who resembled Daniel Wu, he looked like chinese and malay mix. Can't tell though. Daniel Wu ain't hot to me. I must be the only one who thinks so. Haha. I noticed he kept looking at me from there, until the moment I left. lol.
2) KLCC was our next stop. Went to Tower Records and guess what I found? DANSON's ALBUM!!! I didn't know it was out. I just realised how hot he was in his album.
Danson's album. This should be the other version. Mine is different.
One picture in his album, he look so cute sleeping.3) I went to Sungai Wang after that. Then, walked over to Lot 10. Häagen-Dazs. Ate fondue.
The Ice- cream shop.
Marcia and fondue. That was my mum's hand. lol.4) I have absolutely no idea who was blasting Arabian or Tamil music at the pool, downstairs at 8pm. I think it was a wedding party.
5) My dad and bro went to Africa. HAHAHA. I hope they enjoy their 1 week trip.
6) My mum thinks I should quit partying. My grades are dropping. She claimed that Witches of Oz completely destroyed me. Hey! I'm trying my best to get back on my feet, k?
7) Anyway, I heard Danson's song. I love 'Ai Wo' (Love Me). It's super nice.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GyFoDW-_beY&mode=related&search=
Check this out. He's freaking hottt.. I love him =)
Gotta hit on the books soon! If I can get myself to. I feel like a total failure now. Haha. Good luck to me!
Friday, September 7, 2007, 5:06 PM
This was monthly test week, the best part was I didn't give a fuck about it. Didn't study at all. Haha. I tembaked the whole Sejarah paper! lol. Really is my 1st time to hentam so many questions. lol. School was boring, as always. Everything seems the same. Today, Erwan and Chun Foong made Rina and I watch some sick movie. Eww.... it was DISGUSTING and SICK!
My presents from my birthday. I was lazy to unpack. haha. Thanks so much =)
DKNY watch! That was totally unexpected!
This big cuddly Torto from them =)
lol. All these are random photos. Hmm... There's nothing happening these days. No happenings. Is it even possible? Haha. What to look forward to? The Witches of Oz cast party! Can't wait for it =)
I'll never let all these get to me, ever again! I know I can get over it. Plus, I finally realise it's not worth it. I've got to get back on my feet =)
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Monday, September 3, 2007, 10:15 PM
Party was great, except for the fact I got stomach upset. Didn't expect people to be there so early.
People playing pool.
the girls.
bernard. sher may. marcia.
rina (that bitch). marcia.
dance floor.
3 birthday cakes!
Anyway, after the party, Shannon and I stayed over.
supper at 1.30am.
shannon and khong fwu at sungai wang (coffee bean)
kah hean and bernard (coffee bean)
bernard and marcia (coffee bean)
And yes, went to Times Square on Sunday with shannon, bernard, kah hean, khong fwu. We went to Sungai Wang after that. It was raining, k? We walked in the rain. And Green Box was full! What nonsense. Then, we walked back to Times Square for the movie. Bernard nearly got hit by the car, Shannon sweared at that bitch. Haha. Almost forgotten, I met Wai Kin with Shannon's primary friend also. What a small world! Haha.