Friday, November 23, 2007, 4:40 PM
I was suppose to go out to Mid Valley today with Rach and all. But in the end I couldn't make it. Why? Because I had SEVERE headache and I started throwing up. It all started after I woke up. wtf.
Went to the doctor, and he said it's food poisoning. wtf. AGAIN? GRR. Ok la, so he decided to give me the drip (saline and glucose). And he poked the needle and I nearly wanted to scream. I was on the verge on slapping him already =p AHAHA. Ouch la. It was damn painful. To make things worse, he drew blood out of me to take some blood test.
What luck la? 'Hang Sui Wan' now. wtf. I attempted to go out 3 times this week. It failed. First, at Bangkok Jazz. Secondly, at OU. Third, at MV. Haih, whatever la. I give it. It's fated.
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I'm going off to London, Venice and Florence tmrw! YEAH, HERE I COME =)
Will be back on the 6th Dec morning. See you all then! Bye people =)
* I hope I'll survive Economy class. Bloody flights fully booked.
Labels: holidays
Tuesday, November 20, 2007, 11:51 PM
Only I can come up with that kind of title. wtf. There were 100 flowers sent to my old house at Ukay Heights from Saturday to Monday O.O My grandfather had 200. What's with decrease in number? Hmm, flowers are expensive. [click image for larger view]
Flowers lined on the side of the road to the house.
More flowers. It's parking lot, btw.
"Bak Kam", people! It's for charity.
That was how my old house looked like. Her coffin was in the house.
We are cousins =) Cute leh? Ken Hei (5 yrs old), Jey Tse (6 yrs old) and Alex [Alexandra] (6 yrs old).
Ken Hei! He talks so much crap lah. Disturbing everyone. But he's still everybody's sunshine.
I swear I'm going to collapse soon. Pray from day to night. I go home at 1 am. Sleep at 3 am and I have to wake up so damn early. Anyway..
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20/11/07 (Tues.)
Today was Burial Day. A lot of people came. Sorry, no pictures. Wasn't in the mood. Ok lah, there was this band from Nirvana, mostly played by old men =.= I laughed at them. wtf was I thinking? They played 'Shi Shang Zhi You Ma Ma Hao' (shoot yourself if you don't know this song) and ' Yue Liang Dai Biao Wo De Xin' (shoot yourself AGAIN if you don't know this song). I suddenly cried when I heard that song. It was her favourite song. She likes karaoke.
Then, we went in the see her for the last time before they cover the coffin. My aunties were already in tears. When it was time for us to pray when the coffin came out, I cried, both my aunties cried, my little cousin Jay Tse cried and someone unknown people (my so called relatives). I seriously cried like (can't put in words). Hmm, ok, I can't stop my tears from coming out. We had to go rounds circling the coffin wearing socks on the tar road at my old house.
Journey begins
Chinese tradition. My uncle, dad and bro held onto the coffin car (whatever you call it lah). The rest of us followed behind. We walked on socks under the hot sun from our house to the Chinese Embassy. With drums and the old-men- band. Anyway, it wasn't that far. A lot of people followed the walk.
At the end, we all got into our respective cars and headed to Nirvana. The best part was, we had traffic police to help us direct traffic. Talking abt VIP coming through. Which means, NO RED LIGHTS! NO TRAFFIC JAM! I bet those people were swearing at us =.= I counted there were 20 cars following the coffin car, but my dad said there were 29 cars. I don't know lah. Wait, and 1 Bas Pekerja. For people who needed transport. Imagine that scene. Haha.
Nirvana (Semenyih)
We passed by Kajang Perdana. AHAHAHA. It reminded me of something funny and wild. Hmm, Alex. He drives people crazy. lols. We reached Nirvana abt 1 hour later. And all they could do was serve us with roasted pork. I felt sick after that =.= They lined the long steps (from the ground level to the top level where my granddad's grave was) with all the flowers people gave. I repeat, 100 in total =) It looked so nice. I'm sure grandma is very happy. So they carried on with the burying ceremony, where we had to throw soil.
Ukay Heights
Ok, then we left. Slept in the car like a pig and reached the house an hour later. After taking food (hire Classic Caterers! they're good), it started raining. How nice. But it's suppose to bring good luck, so yeah.
I cried again when I saw some sort video clips of her (in my comp) during our b'days and stuff. I promise I'll stop crying now. I'm happy for her, she's free from all the pain in the world.
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OBITUARY
Check the Sunday newspaper (18/11/07), there's my grandma's obituary.
The Star: pg N 52
New Straits Time: pg 56
Sin Chew: I forgot
Nanyang Siang Pau: I forgot also
*special thanks to some other companies which put up the obituary as well.
special thanks to some people who wrote some article about her in the Nanyang Paper.
and also, thanks for the flowers.
and thanks for coming to pay last respect to her.
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Anyway, I'll stop here. Enough crap for today. I'm tired. Been on the run for a few days. Time out!
p.s. Thanks so much you guys. I appreciate it =)
Labels: funeral
Friday, November 16, 2007, 7:22 PM
Today was the last day of school. We had a Form party at the canteen. 'Yum......... Sheng!!!' AHAHAH. Everyone got high eating Dominos pizza. At the end of the day, we had group hugs. Jumping like monkeys in a circle. lols.
Then, ( Highlight to read. But mind you, it might be too emo for you. Be mentally prepared to read it)
I came home, carrying all my books cleared frm my locker. It weighed like a ton. My dad called the house right after I stepped in. He told us to rush to the hospital, my grandma was in bad condition. My sister and I rushed to Gleneagles (thank god it is so near my house).
GLENEAGLES HOSPITAL
There I saw her lying on the bed, gasping for air, eyes barely open. Both my aunties and uncle were crying by her bed. Her maid (caretaker) cried so badly. I stood by her bed side, holding her cold hand, tearing. My eyes felt sore. Finally, my dad, uncle and aunty decided to take her back home (my old house). The people in charge of the ambulance demanded for payment before they would do anything. WTF. It's a matter of life and death, you piece of ****! My uncle was close to whacking him up.
BACK AT THE HOUSE
They carried her to the bedroom after she came down from the ambulance. They turned on the Oxygen supply. She was in a half conscious state. No matter how hard we tried to call her, she just wouldn't respond. All of us stayed by her bed, sobbing. My aunty cleaned her up and put on her clothes and applied a bit of make-up. About 5. 20pm, her eyes were open. She could finally see the rest of us. Everyone was crying. We already knew she wouldn't be able to last any longer. My aunty told her to follow the light she will see. My dad also passed her his handphone with my brother on the line. He was calling her for the last time.
Suddenly, her body became tense and let out her last breath. She left, peacefully. My dad was crying. I held her hand till the very last moment. The moment where she chose to give up. The time to free herself from all the pain in the world. We were told not to cry. That way, she can leave us peacefully. Like what the chinese normally say, 'On Sum Xiong Lou'. They covered her with the black robes. And, that was the end of it.
I regretted not spending more time with her when she was still here with us. It's too late now. I admit, I'm not a good grand-daughter. I apologise for all my mistakes. If only there was more time. To you people out there, appreciate your loved ones. Don't wait till it's too late and regret like me. If there was just something I could do.
**dedicated to her (in mandrin): ZHE JU HUA KE NENG LAI DE TAI CHI, DAN SHI WO HAI SHI YAO SHUO YI SHENG: " DUI BU QI". XIE XIE NI WEI WO SHUO ZHOU DE YI QIE. WO MEN HUI YONG YUAN DE AI NI. AN XI SHANG LU BAH..
p.s. Sorry I can't make it to Bangkok Jazz this Sunday (you know who you are). lols. Sorry guys, can't make it on Monday too. There'll be "Da Zai" at my old house for 3 nights. All the prayers and stuff.
Thursday, November 15, 2007, 9:14 PM
Hmm, her condition didn't improve. Now, she has a feeding tube in her body. To make things worse, she has bed sores =S Worried for her. How la? I feel so bad for her. I see her struggling in her hospital bed, but I can't do anything. She tries to speak, but she can't. I doubt she can even remember me. Dementia.
Packing is a pain. 6 days to go. My luggage = kosong! haha.
p.s. do you believe in karma?
Wednesday, November 14, 2007, 3:47 AM
I don't understand how life can be so unfair sometimes.
Especially to me, maybe us.
I'm just an average 16 year old girl who wants to live a normal life, not facing some shit every single f*cking day.
I'm awake now for the same reason. wtf.
And I'm not going to school today. So much for chem classes. I'm screwed whey.
Not like I haven't been nagged enough because of report card.
No one can help me, cause I have to stand up to this myself everytime.
It's not easy, you know?
Instead of carrying out your responsibility well, you're just giving us hell.
Haven't you every thought how would we feel?
It isn't the 1st time, and I'm becoming so tired of hearing this.
Pls give me a break..
p.s. All the bitches in the world should go to hell.. bunch of fcukers.. spoiling people's life..
Monday, November 12, 2007, 1:35 AM
I wonder what got to me lately. I suddenly have the urge to contact all my primary school friends. Yes, I miss them a lot =) Many people changed in their looks. Well, not sure abt their character or personality, after all it has been years since we've met.
I was once this cry-baby, quiet, shy and naive small girl. I was also scared of everything around me. I sound like I have 'Zhi Bi Zhen'. HAHA. People said I've changed. Well, it's part of the growing process. So yeah. lols. I still remember how much I use to cry when I was at Std 1, 2 and 3. Mind you, I was known for that. Haha. At least I'm not the only one =)
My closest friend. It's quite disappointing to hear that she has changed so much. Mixing with the wrong crowd. Even if I wanna talk to her now, I doubt she'll even choi me. I once thought I knew her so well. It was because of her that I started speaking up. Yes, I met her during Std 5 and 6. She's the hyper type of girl. Maybe a bit tom boy also la. Everyday she enjoys calling people names and scolding people. HAHA. I still remember how we use to water plants after break at the garden behind our class. It was funny.
her: Liu Zhi Zhang (paper)
me: Lee Mah Tong (toilet bowl)
her: ni mei you si guo ah? (you never die before?) direct translation.
*we'll start laughing.
Kindda sad that I lost contact with some of them. Even looking at the photo, I can't seem to recall their names. How pathetic =.= I should go hypnotise myself into recalling the pass.
* SJK (C) Lai Meng, 6H, Class of 2003.
Anyway, it's getting late. I still have school tmrw. Nightss people!
p.s. I hope we'll all meet again someday =)
Labels: past
Saturday, November 10, 2007, 11:54 PM
Jay Chou's 8th album is finally out =) This album really shows the other side of him. His 'cute' side, though he think it's hard trying to ACT CUTE. It's worth it la, some of his songs are really cheerful. Lively. lols. It just brightens up your day. I like most of his songs in this album. Very different from his usual style.
周杰倫- 我很忙 (Jay Chou- I Am very Busy).
1. 牛仔很忙 The Cowboy On The Run (Niu Zai Hen Mang)
2. 彩虹 Rainbow (Cai Hong)
3. 青花瓷 Blue and White (Qing Hua Ci)
4. 陽光宅男 Sunshine Homeboy (Yang Guang Zhai Nan)
5. 蒲公英的約定 Dandelion's Promise (Pu Gong Ying De Yue Ding)
6. 無雙 Unparalleled (Wu Shuang)
7. 我不配 I'm Not Worthy (Wo Bu Pei)
8. 扯 Pull/Ripping (Che)
9. 甜甜的 Sweet (Tian Tian De)
10. 最長的電影 The Longest Movie (Zui Chang De Dian Ying)
* The translation is for THE 'bananas'. I suddenly feel proud that I know mandrin =)
蒲公英的約定 Dandelion's Promise is one of the Secret (piano) songs. Just so you know, it's 小雨寫立可白 I (Xiao Yu Xie Li Ke Bai), the emo song I posted not long ago. lols.
我不配 I'm Not Worthy (Wo Bu Pei) is a song you MUST LISTEN! I'm addicted to it. lols. It's great how he describes his life as an artist, not able to have a normal relationship like other people. The music video is really touching. That's why I always think Jay Chou's the best =) Mind you, it's emo. Haha.
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I was bored. See what I do everyday =.=
My beloved piggy! Hmm, he reminds me of someone =p Who likes to sleep a lot. Yeah, what a pig..
My very 'yeng' piggy with specks. It's mine =)
Tuesday, November 6, 2007, 5:16 PM
I fell down on the f-ing stairs on my way up just now. Yes, I just came back from school. wtf. I have a bleeding right knee and a cut left leg =.= I'm jinxed.
p.s. our bio presentation rocked =)
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Monday, November 5, 2007, 11:03 PM
Sometimes I wonder what friends are for? Are they just your companions to go party with, hang out, play games, copy homework? Skip that crap. I guess,arguing among friends is something quite common, even over the smallest thing. I tried arguing with Rachel until it came to an extend I don't know how to describe (it was ugly, k?). I was at fault, though I didn't think so at the beginning.
We yelled at each other, slammed doors at each others face, said all those bitchy things and it came to an extend I would cry so badly. (NO HARD FEELINGS RACH =) I still love you. haha. ) Well, since it was so ugly then, we both could have just left it just like that. But I'm glad we didn't.
It was quite hard talking things out, I would be crying and she would be starting all her sarcastic stuff. Anyway, it was then I realised all my faults. I apologised. And she forgave me so many times. Well that's of course she was still willing to take all that shit from me. She could have abandoned me. HAHA. I still remember how I would just let the phone ring for 5 over times (or more) without answering. Finding every single way to avoid her. Eventually, I still gave in.
The reason was quite simple. We both valued our friendship. At the end of the day, we worked everything out. And hey! I'm not saying we argued once, ok? It was a few times. Now, we're still besties! BFFs! Haha. We can be such bitches at times. lols.
To you people out there (you know who you are), good friends don't come by easily. It's good to tolerate to a certain limit. But when you think it has gone too far, then just do what you think it's right. At the end of the day, it just comes down to one thing. DO YOU VALUE THAT FRIENDSHIP after many years? Accept them for what they are. Change for them if you think it's worth. I believe that many years of friendship can't just go down the drain like that. Well, that's provided if you were a friend in the 1st place.
* aunty marcia talking too much crap. she should just shut up. that's what my evil twin is saying to me now =.=
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PEKA in the Chem Lab. (Continuous Variation Method)
okayy. This is going to be funny. Rina (cleopetra, korean, japanese, china doll, egytian) was my partner for chem PEKA.
We filled in the burette with Potassium Chromate (VI) 3 times because of some shit accident. Mind you, it's poisonous. FYI, a burette is that long thing.
1) got precipiate (Rina didn't wash the filter funnel)
2) I spilled some of that yellow poisonous shit on the table
3) I CAN'T REMEMBER.
Then, we filled the other burette with Lead (II) Nitrate Solution 2 times. The burette was leaking. I forgot to mention Rina overflowed it too. Mr Sheat was laughing at us. wtf. HAHA.
ps. I HAVE TO RE-DO IT TMRW! I did not get the BEST-FIT LINE. HAHAHA. My hands are stained yellow! I'm poisoned. Dying soon. lols.
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Announcement: I'm going to work soon, month of Dec. I'm finally getting my ass to work, my mum is desperate for me to work. She wants me out of her sight. HAHA. I don't even know how to work a cash register. wtf.
Sunday, November 4, 2007, 12:08 PM
Ok, just came back from the hospital after visiting my grandmum. Mind you, it's Gleneagles. The ICU level is creepy ok. The 1st floor was like silent and there wasn't anyone..
Anyway, I walked in the ICU unit, it was damn cold. There I saw my grandmum on her bed, lying down. She was making weird noises, I guess she couldn't speak very well. As I walked closer to her bed side, I could see that she was shivering. OMG, my heart sank immediately. Got a blanket and covered her. She seemed like she was in pain. Can't even describe how I felt then. The best part was, the doctor said she was fine. Gonna see her tmrw again. Sighh...
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1) Went to the Club 21 bazaar at JW Marriot at Bukit Bintang today. Haha. I picked up at Emporio Armani blouse =) lols.
2) I need a new handbag to go England and Italy! Haha. I mean, a cheap one. I'm glad I get to be away for almost 2 weeks! Sweet escape! Yeah....
3) My dad scolded me for saying 'shit'. Haha. Wait till he hears more from me. Words like, 'FUCK'.. haha..
4) I found some of my friends from Lai Meng at Facebook! Haha.
5) Safe trip to Egypt, Chung Yi. I wanted to sms you, but forgot. haha.
What's with this random post.. lols..
Labels: random
Friday, November 2, 2007, 5:09 PM
Form Fives' last day of school. What a emo day. HAHA. They brought a speaker and played songs during lunch. The whole canteen sang along. Including us. Backstreet boys? lols. Kindda terasa when I saw them like that.
Coming to think of it, it'll be our turn next year. Would we shed tears on the last day like them? Would we be as wild as them, or worse? One year's really short. Before you know it, it's probably time for SPM and time to leave school. No more goofing around like 10 year olds in college. No more doing immature and wild things. Imagine how would people who studied in Cempaka since Std 1 or kindergarten feel? I think most of us wouldn't know how to feel. It'll be hard to part with our close friends now. But hey, it's life. So yeah, cherish every moment.
Hmm. Sometimes, I don't get the whole point for bring in a relationship. It's good in a way as it provides moral support to every soul, but when things turn sour...They tend to break down if they're too involved. Not to mention that they can also lose themselves, their mind. Why do they have to put themselves in a position where they think they can't be helped. A position where it's like the end of the world. Is it even worth it at this age? Life is a long journey. A journey full of obstacles to overcome in our lifetime. Every wound would heel some day. First of all, you have to open up your heart and allow other people to help you. Ok, enough crap. I feel old enough after being called Aunty, today..
School had been really pointless lately. We have like so many free periods everyday. I would just sleep through it. The reason why I'm going to school for our chem, bio, physics and add maths class O.O
R.A.G. blog URL (the huggies): www.huggies28.blogspot.com/
(you people have issues calling me emo. haha. if I really am that emo, you can stop reminding me. I got the mssg, k?)